Stress. It’s the bane of my existence. Almost always work related. Never feeling like I’ve done enough, and rarely being satisfied with the results of my efforts.
And so with those black thoughts in mind, I decided a nice bike ride would, or at the very least, could (potentially) relieve some pent up frustration.
Completely coincidentally, having not rained all day and with only a 10% chance of precipitation on the weather forecast, out I went into the rain. The rain, that might I add, lasted for the entire duration of my ride. And then stopped as I arrived home. Can’t make it up.
I had no plan going out today. Just ride, ideally for an hour, get some calories burned, come back home hopefully feeling a little more relaxed.
The rain annoyed me. My knee annoyed me. The wind annoyed me.
And so I decided to just stomp on it.
I said earlier this week, ERG mode is the saviour for me when I am in a bad way. It stops me doing anything stupid. Well, no ERG outdoors.
There was pain. I pushed through it. I might wake up regretting it tomorrow, but at the time I felt like I needed to do it.
Anyway, after a short while the pain kinda subsided. Or numbed. I don’t know. I’m no medical expert. All I do know is I got through it.
If I’m fine tomorrow morning, I’m going out again. My numbers this week are shocking. I’ve no idea what I’ll do, or where I’ll go. But I have to get out of this house, away from this computer, and just ride, ya know?
That’s all I want to do. Fairly sure it’s all work / computer related that’s doing my nut in.
